LR is sad, y'all

I have gotten several messages from fans of the show recently asking me when the next show is coming out. I tmay never happen again. I am feeling so utterly depressed and alone right now. I have never felt this way before.

About two weeks ago I got a notice from a collection agency about a store credit card I'd used and stopped making payments on 6 years ago. It was a long story but basically, I signed up for the card to get 10% off a pot from their housewares department. And then I moved, so the address they had for me was wrong. The pot was $12. Now with all the added late charges, termination fees, "back-end dues" and "talliation financial adjustments" (what they is?) I owe them $6,000.

For a $12 pot that has now got a broken handle and sits outside in my backyard with a dead cherry tomato plant in it.

I have been huddled in my tv room watching Regis and Kelly in the mornings, then the Nanny in the late mornings, then the Judge shows in the afternoon and finally some dramas at night. This is how it's been all week. I am frozen. Completely frozen.

Tiki calls me and I do not pick up the phone. Other friends text me and I read them and delete the texts. The pizza man comes and I answer the door of course. But I eat alone. In silence. Except for a cd playing of Teddy Pendergrass, over and over and over.

The Lady is sad and the inspiration to make shows gone. I can't go on forever hiding. I know God has a plan for me. But for now, I am sitting here eating food and watching tv until I can find a way out of this misery.

-LR